There’s a guardian at the entrance to the cave.
That guy is really standing there. The text for the card reads, “the guardian challenges those who would enter the cave of ancestral memory without understanding the nature of their known darkness.” That’s a bit of a catch-22 situation. How can you understand your own darkness if you can’t go into the cave to explore it?
I once made a really naïve kind of mistake. It was a group of slightly elderly people and I was going to lead them into a guided meditation. So being my own enthusiastic self I thought as follows: these people are kind of conservative, fixed in their ways, very settled down, and they have stopped exploring life with the fervor they once may have had. Therefore the obvious kind of meditation to do with them would be a journey to lighten the darkness that stops them from living more fully, right? Ha, wrong.
This is what happened. I instructed them, in the safety of their own imagination, to go into a dark cave and wait there for something they were afraid of to present itself to them. Then they were to observe this thing, and come back. No biggie, I thought. Out of the approximately 15 people there, 3-4 refused to even take part in the meditation, some stolidly refused to speak about it, a few tried to follow the instructions but were unable to direct their mind into the cave, and last remaining few went into the cave but then flew off into all manner of other directions in a chaotic way. Not one person in that group met their fear in the cave.
I was flabbergasted. I may have been naïve, but still I was flabbergasted. What the fuck is going on with these folks, I thought. Flabbergasted is a great word, it means perplexed and confused in a light-hearted way. You throw up your hands and shake your head.
Well, maybe the guardian at the entrance to the cave stepped in. For whatever reason, some people cannot or don’t want to or are not interested in exploring the cave of their own darkness. It’s not fear, they don’t even get to the point of fear. It’s a kind of in-advance refusal. Now, this is OK, since freedom is the ground we all stand on.
Hey, if you don’t want to go into a dark cave and wait there for something that you fear the most, no problem. :) There are other ways of spending an evening :)
At some point we all, without exception, enter the cave and there may be no reason to go there early. Robin Williams entered it the other day. You will too, and so will I.
I do ask one thing: if you’re going to come to any Vibrational Workshop you must be prepared to enter that dark cave. Otherwise you will be wasting your time. There’s a guardian at the entrance to the cave.